replacement

hooy assalamualaiiiikuuum!!! actually this time isnt about that love shit story anymore. im already over, well really really over and tired with it. but yeaaah! this evening i got some shock fact from "semesta". i cant tell it clearly in here, because i have some unbreakable promise, well maybe its breakable, but since i have some tragedy with that kind of "promise", then i wont play with it again. its suuuper dangerous, evenmore its count down from the final examination that will be held on the mid of april (i kind a forget the date, maybe around 15 or a week after that), and i havent prepare anythiiing, its reallly dita type, as usual -____- the real procastinator of the year, it hurts but yeah, thats the fact that i must bare. 

oke skip with that kind of procastinator things. so heres the story, this evening "my past" suddenly jump into my life again and bring his packs of problem. he demand some "suggestion" maybe he thought that my words would makes everythings become right, then i dont do that. im kind a messed up, hellow! no matter how friendly you are, or how cool i should be with our condition, i am still learning how to talk and act like usual. and yeah, as you know, he wont care that such things, well boys. but i try to be as objective as i can, it hurts but i split my word as easy like making some jokes. but you know whats hurt the most? the fact that he ever do that for me, now he fell from the same height like what he done before. 

its not that i have such feelings of heartbreak, but its more likely i am just some girl that easy to replace by a random girl that came into the others life. i just hate to know that im not that special as i thought. then, thats what hurts the most.