A Shot in the Morning
Assalamualaikum buddiieeesss!. it has been a thousand years without post in here, wkwkwk. I'm afraid that i have npthing to write so i'll just tell you how my life nowadays. Somehow i feel important to share my thoughts, my feelings, or any state that happen lately to you dear blog. It is the universe where i can talk about anything, anywhere, anyone.
Well, now i have like 2 weeks free day, it is more less than everyone in my college have, and yep, i feel kind sad but what should i dooo?? college life drained me to the lowest lately yet i feel alive. I spent my days (even in the examination weeks) for organization (which i want to tell you something about it in my next post) and events that is still on going (hopefully it will run well), and yeah, i have trouble for balance this two things, college and organization, i won't ever ever make it fair between them both. Of course! i will always choose study, thats what the point i live a lot of miles away from my family and friends. But this system have me do it. but yeah, i still alive and still. And even with all of this circumstances, i believe, there are no such a "waste" from every process that i went through.
And to be nostalgic, it has been a year since i moved to this small and serene city. I barely tired to say "I miss you" to them. Everyone have their own life. I know that people will always come and go from ur life. Thats how life teach you to just let everythings go and ikhlas. But what can i do?. I already have a clash with dad about my will to go to that crowded city alone. Yeah, like he always do, he won't let me do that. Alone is such a crucial word for every dad with a daughter i think, and when i am alone i know where that worries come from, but at least try, right?. I know that i will always have God that be my guidance anytime, if it's meant to be then it is that happens, and if it's not, then it just don't, right?. But you can't fully undestands ur parents feelings until you become one. So maybe i just take it and done. But you know what i am afraid the most for not seeing my old friends?
it is not because the "I miss you" feelings the most
nor boring
But to be truth, i am just afraid of being forgotten.
Such an egoistic reasons, isn't it?. Sometimes i think that they met a lot of people. Or even i am just a small alphabet in a novel, and being that kind of things i always try to be meaningful to everyone. I am afraid that they will forget me and then i lose them (maybe losing them is the second reason why). Because it's saddening when i am the one who always remember everything and everyone when the others don't. But luckily, sometimes they wake me up and make me realize that they always remember, And the one who stay quite is me. I dont do anything to make them realize that i remember them, or at least i try and i fail. But yeah maybe everything will fall in the right place, at the right time. So let we just wait :"))
Well, now i have like 2 weeks free day, it is more less than everyone in my college have, and yep, i feel kind sad but what should i dooo?? college life drained me to the lowest lately yet i feel alive. I spent my days (even in the examination weeks) for organization (which i want to tell you something about it in my next post) and events that is still on going (hopefully it will run well), and yeah, i have trouble for balance this two things, college and organization, i won't ever ever make it fair between them both. Of course! i will always choose study, thats what the point i live a lot of miles away from my family and friends. But this system have me do it. but yeah, i still alive and still. And even with all of this circumstances, i believe, there are no such a "waste" from every process that i went through.
And to be nostalgic, it has been a year since i moved to this small and serene city. I barely tired to say "I miss you" to them. Everyone have their own life. I know that people will always come and go from ur life. Thats how life teach you to just let everythings go and ikhlas. But what can i do?. I already have a clash with dad about my will to go to that crowded city alone. Yeah, like he always do, he won't let me do that. Alone is such a crucial word for every dad with a daughter i think, and when i am alone i know where that worries come from, but at least try, right?. I know that i will always have God that be my guidance anytime, if it's meant to be then it is that happens, and if it's not, then it just don't, right?. But you can't fully undestands ur parents feelings until you become one. So maybe i just take it and done. But you know what i am afraid the most for not seeing my old friends?
it is not because the "I miss you" feelings the most
nor boring
But to be truth, i am just afraid of being forgotten.
Such an egoistic reasons, isn't it?. Sometimes i think that they met a lot of people. Or even i am just a small alphabet in a novel, and being that kind of things i always try to be meaningful to everyone. I am afraid that they will forget me and then i lose them (maybe losing them is the second reason why). Because it's saddening when i am the one who always remember everything and everyone when the others don't. But luckily, sometimes they wake me up and make me realize that they always remember, And the one who stay quite is me. I dont do anything to make them realize that i remember them, or at least i try and i fail. But yeah maybe everything will fall in the right place, at the right time. So let we just wait :"))
0 comments